Gavin Jones is morally bankrupt.

I am in a lot of pain at the moment, I am seriously surviving on next to no sleep as well as dealing with flashbacks etc.

I just had the bright idea that maybe there was something legal I could do to stop Gavin Jones from invading my life. I’m talking about how he’s in my head laughing at me and saying things I can’t understand.

I went as far as to start typing in the search bar to find out. My only defence is that I didn’t finish typing and did not press enter.

That is pretty crazy right there.

Yesterday was a great day, it really was, I felt at times my heart was going to explode with how full it was.

This is something I don’t understand, especially regarding Gavin Jones behaviour.

I may be slightly crazy, but I am happy and my heart is full. That is how I act towards people, It is self serving behaviour because being nice and helpful to people makes you feel really good. I will stop people in the supermarket and tell them I adore their hair or clothes or whatever it is that has caught my eye and i’ve thought ‘Wow!’ so I tell them. I’m never someone that gets angry because I don’t really see the point of that.

I don’t understand how some people can carry so much hate and bitterness around with them and use that to make others feel bad, especially when you have the power to change things and to change peoples moods and their lives.

Take what i’ve been writing about recently. Gavin Jones knows that serious complaints have not been investigated by ECC. He knows that those complaints contain serious safeguarding issues that almost killed one of my children, and left three of them wanting to kill themselves.

He knew this was happening at the time because I emailed him asking for his help. He could have, and if he had any morals whatsoever, should have, done something about it.

Gavin Jones felt that serious safeguarding issues that almost killed a child were not worth investigating and was happy for his complaints team to give me five different excuses as to why they couldn’t investigate, each of them different from the previous as I provided evidence to show that what they were saying was a load of rubbish.

I wrote to Gavin Jones regarding this, he actively condoned this behaviour by his employees as it was happening and let it happen some more and even now is happy that it hasn’t been investigated.

There is doing what you can get away with and then there is doing what is morally right to protect vulnerable children and families.

He went with brushing everything under the carpet, including my childs suicide attempt, my childs life doesn’t matter, but having anything on paper that could even remotely point to his precious officers having caused it, thus a chance it may reflect badly on him, matters so much to him, he used his power to do nothing. He may have even contacted them after I sent the email to tell them that under no circumstances are they to investigate, that is probably what he did given his actions after that.

His job is not to help people, it’s to keep politicians happy.

He knew what they were doing and that it was wrong, even Paul Turner, the monitoring officer, eventually agreed it was wrong.

As i’ve stated before, as it was a corporate complaint, the LA has full control over it, and could investigate it a thousand times over a thousand years. There is no limit on the amount of times it could be investigated, and no time limits either.

Now anyone who actually cared about anyone but himself and his position, would have insisted this was done when I contacted him, would have absolutely insisted it was done when I started telling the world and it came to his attention, which it is clear it has given what happened on May 4th.

If I had money to bet with, i’d bet that he’s sought legal advice to shut me up, that may still be ongoing and I may receive legal things in due course. That he went with legal advice and not doing what is morally right, and also the right thing to do for the protection of vulnerable children and women in Essex, says a lot. I’m only guessing about the legal action, especially because i’ve named Louise McKinlay a lot and she threatened me 18 months ago with legal action when I asked her for help. Just a few month before her own monitoring officer confirmed that what i’d stated was true, which means that what Louise McKinlay said in the email, and the basis of which she threatened me with legal action, was false.

Did Louise McKinlay contact me with an apology and accept she was wrong? Did she remove the threat of legal action? Absolutely not.

Gavin Jones is controlled by the members.

In local government the members are usually the least liked by those who actually work as officers in that council. Treated like Gods to their faces, have unique unpleasant nicknames behind their backs.

Local Government is usually poorly run and inefficient compared to the private sector, with behaviours that would get you instantly dismissed from the private sector allowed to continue unchallenged.

Nepotism is rife, i’ve noticed that at ECC.

Bullying is rife as is favouritism, they go together and while this has been told to me by an ECC employee, NOT one who has worked with our family, this is rife at ECC, and was a reason this person was planning on leaving. Another person had already left because of this.

I’ve worked in local government and it would appear that the same problems are still a problem today.

It’s a huge problem when it’s not about how the organisation performs, it’s about how it is perceived they perform. The members only want positivity and to hide the negativity, their position depends on it. Their only goal is re-election.

It’s all about image. My favourite was my boss who decided some anti-racist training was in order for his all white workforce. I had no problems with that in theory. I can still remember his exact words “I’m going to ask my black friend to come in and talk to everyone”. He then proceeded to say the words “my black friend” a few more times while appearing to feel he was above everyone and definitely not racist because of “my black friend”. In front of an all white workforce who were hired by him. “my black friend” did not have a name.

It never happened because “my black friend” ended up being too busy when asked.

The amount of money I saw being wasted, the amount of time being wasted. My time was wasted, I saw immediately that there were ways of doing things better that would save time, this was solely to do with my job. Wasn’t allowed because “That’s the way it’s always been done”. I left, mostly because I was so bored as I often had nothing to do.

So I know what working in a political environment is like, I know that absolutely nobody wants to rock the boat. I know that you have people who have no idea what they are doing in positions they absolutely should not be in, but are because of nepotism.

The private sector is so different, if something can be done better and more quickly, you do it, and you are assigned more responsibility as a result.

Money is spent on things to make the company look better, like awards and things like that, but it’s all marketing and the company wants to stand out from others selling the same things.

I desperately want to get back to work but my caring responsibilities mean that isn’t possible at this time. If I cannot find a role that will fit in, i’m going to do some volunteering but can’t even do that at the moment.

That said, the top officers carry a lot of weight, the head of paid service carries a lot of weight. Unless there was intervention by a member stopping him, Gavin Jones absolutely could have done something to help, not even help, just do the morally correct thing and investigate.

He could literally order it to be investigated right now, there is nothing stopping him except the fact he is morally bankrupt and enjoys seeing vulnerable people suffer. I wouldn’t consent to that because ECC works solely for the benefit of ECC and a fair investigation would not be done.

The ‘investigation’ they did do was horrific, not that I read it all. As soon as I saw that regarding Kiran Box throwing away medical evidence and a timeline in front of me with a smug look on her face when that evidence would have stopped the child protection process, the outcome was “that she already knew all of the medical evidence”, which does not actually answer the complaint and just shows how corrupt Essex County Council is and how they protect their image and not the residents.

That said, their ‘investigation’ allows me to raise a complaint against Kiran Box, and it also provides additional evidence that if she knew all of the medical evidence, why did she she say things that went against the available medical evidence and went against what the evidence I handed her said.

The only issue I may have is that the evidence and timeline bundle she was given has probably been erased from existence. I don’t have a copy as the computer I was using then, died, and it was lost. There are witnesses who could confirm it’s existence, and given the things i’ve already posted on here of what she said, and what the available medical evidence said, it’s extremely clear that at the very least she is lying about something. If she knew all of the medical evidence, why did she do and say things that would clearly harm my children and there was medical evidence to show they weren’t true?

It’s just a lot of work raising a concern with SWE, i’d have to meticulous go through what she said, and the harm she ordered should happen to my children, and then show the medical evidence that shows that what she was saying was not backed up by medical evidence.

I’d like her to be held to account for what she did, she is clearly not going to hold herself to account, and ECC have refused to do so. The so called investigator had the medical evidence when she would have talked to Kiran Box, yet never even asked her about the discrepancies in what she said that is on record, and what the medical evidence shows. She is dangerous, really really dangerous. She wants to cause as much damage as possible because she is power hungry.

As for the sexual abuse stuff, the cover up by ECC has been astounding. Refusing to investigate it, condoned by Louise McKinlay and Gavin Jones and a whole host of others.

Robbie Watson-Levey, the then complaint manager, now Head of Customer Engagement, is just someone who clearly wants to climb as far as he can up the ladder. I said at the time that the faux award he won for being the bestest complaints manager from the very few companies that participated in the vanity awards, was because he wanted a promotion, he wasted public money on a faux award that solely benefits himself. I’m going to write a post about all of that. He didn’t even have a clue about how complaints work, he should not have been in that role, it was nepotism that he got it in the first place.

So with the sexual abuse stuff, even now Gavin Jones could insist it’s investigated, it is solely down to ECC to chose whether they do or not, even now. They are not bound by any rules other than their own, even the LGO state the council can still investigate a corporate complaint if they won’t. Gavin Jones decided to torture me instead.

Firstly by making sure it wasn’t investigated when I contacted him, and then liking my tweet, and not even offering an explanation, despite it being clear i was incredibly distressed.

So because one of his officers forced me to disclose sexual abuse and made me say all the intimate details, and in front of my child, which then gave me PTSD, I get further punished from him because in his view they should just be allowed to get away with it and i’m the bad person for speaking out about it. So now because of his actions I cannot sleep, i’m having flashbacks, and he’s in my head laughing at me and saying things that I cannot quite hear or understand.

He made sure that any avenue of compassion or comfort has been cut off from my children and myself, by making sure things weren’t investigated, there could be no apology, no putting things right, not even telling my children that what they were saying was true. Not even saying to my children that they were wrong to not listen to my children.

So he’s protected himself well, made sure that the members look good. He is ultimately the reason why my child attempted suicide, and has just stopped crying. The anniversary of something social services did is next week and they are reliving everything and having flashbacks.

So the decisions that Gavin Jones made, the decisions his poorly trained officers made and then he condoned because those decisions protect the council, is still having a lasting impact on my children and myself.

So what does he do when I post publicly about it? He tortures me to the point of a breakdown.

No matter how much control the members have over him, at some point you would crack and refuse to continue to cause harm. Especially when some of the harm you caused was a child attempting suicide.

This is why I have described him as cruel and a monster, because this is what his actions show.

It’s not him, any of his officers, or the members that i’m trying to impress, it’s the general public. They have reached the same conclusion I have regarding the facts i’ve posted.

It’s them i’m trying to warn, it’s them i’m trying to protect. To be fair, it’s partly for them i’m planning on telling this part of my story out loud next week, because without having said it outloud, without processing it, I cannot go further than this blog. I have ideas, and I desperately want to, I just can’t.

Then there is the legal action thing, Louise McKinlay will spearhead that as she told me she would, i’m dreading it, really dreading it, I jump everytime the door knocks, a legal letter like that would be signed for.

So I just needed to write all of that out, it’s therapeutic, and I have a lot going on at home, most of it positive, but it’s hard work, and I obviously cannot bring all of this into my behaviour at home. My kids need me and they need me to be strong and reliable, so I always am. This is therapeutic, I guess until I hand it over next week.

I wish he’d stop being in my head.

I actually wish he’d grown some ovaries all that time ago when I asked him for help and he decided to cover it up instead of making things right for my children.

It is what it is, and all I can do is work with what i’ve got, which isn’t actually a lot, it’s me against the whole of ECC, not exactly a great position to be in.